31 岁

 31 岁啦！

老了。

感觉什么都容易失去。

什么都不容易得来。

那天的我很幸福。

生日许的愿望是每年都可以获得同等的关爱。

得到了从未有过的关爱，更害怕失去那一刻的感觉。

跌跌撞撞太多反而让自己害怕。

得到越多是不是等待跌倒更深的那一刻？

期望的越高，是不是失落的更多?

30岁的我

30岁的我： 

27岁不顾一切生下了女儿， 今年女儿三岁。

曾经自己想过自己怎么去闯，怎么去恍的人生，发生了重大的改变。

想要跳bungee jumping 不需回头考虑，一直是人生目标。

却因为思虑中的她，不敢妄想。

想要继续挑战没去过的地方，现在更想带你一起去体验。

想要没有停歇与朋友一起畅谈，却因为不想错过与你的每分每秒而回家。

想要不停旅行，却放不下带你的心。

曾经想过如果当初没有那份坚持，就没有今天的我。

谢谢你，成就了今天的我。

因为你，

有家真好。

时间和环境。

叠高枕头想了很久，一个永远解不开论不停的话题，钱能改变一个人吗？
念书时的恋爱，仿佛没有一方曾经告诉过我它的重要性。凡事只要开心就好，哪怕只是一些微小的体贴行为或是久久一次的约会已经感到非常满足。
进入社会工作时，开始考虑到大家能相处的时间都有限，顾虑多了，负担高了，少了份自在；决定也会因为需要顾虑及不同的因素而更变。

人为什么会改变？
其中最奇妙的因素应该是时间和环境吧！
两者都是一件很独特却息息相关的因素。人生，不就是分分秒秒都围绕在它俩旁吗？
它不仅能够改变一个人的思想与态度，还可以影响这一个人的本质以及行为。

这让我想起了姐姐的故事。
当时她男朋友每个星期天带着她也带上我去捉蝴蝶 - 那，是一种简单的快乐。
我姐在她22岁时嫁给了她男友，我的姐夫. 婚姻，是成家立士的象征.
从一无所有，陪着他总算挨过来了。
至今已经20年了，详情我也就不提了，总之两人还是那么的相亲相爱。
这份幸福来的不易。那是经过努力后得来的快乐。

时间和环境，再次成为了主角。

我发现周遭的人，会沾花惹草的人，都是经济稳固的人。
哪怕在不稳定时，都不怎么会想到离开守在身边的那一位（不是在说我姐）。
换个角度想想，一开始就过的非常舒服的一群利用自己拥有的来容易的事物去找到伴侣。
跟随你的，是否能在你跌倒的那一天，还牵着你的手呢？

朋友告诉我：对，金钱就是魔鬼。
即便每个人多么的想否认这一点，可是它真的能够有令使你迷失了方向，迷失了原始的纯真，甚至迷失了自我的能力。

如果你反对，请你老实回答我，
你现在什么都有了，这样比较快乐，
还是小时候什么都没有时候比较快了呢？

我想，每个人的答案会随着不同的时间与环境下而变异。


不说了，
也许，最简单的快乐，就隐藏在最单纯的时光里。




馨。

心情篇 - 壹

自己不知道怎么一回事。只有在伤心或疑惑的时候才会想起自己的部落格。
说是想把自己的情绪发泄发泄吧？

人脑是相当环保的工具。当我们进入一个新环境的时候，感官会特别灵敏，注意到的特别多，不过一旦我们熟悉了那个环境，大脑就会自动切换「省电模式」，过滤掉所有自认为不重要的细节。- 刘轩

有慎重的想过这一句话，人在进入一个 ‘省电模式’后，会不会渐渐的失去不知不觉中忽略掉的事情而越来越没有了自我？

累了。
已经第26天了， 心与脑还是不是很搭得上。

想逃跑的感觉又忽然冒了出来。。。。。


馨。

Live To Dive Chapter - Nudibranch

Sakuraeolis Nungunoides

To divers, apart from the excitement of sighting whale shark, manta rays or other big fishes, we are often attracted to nudibranch, for their vibrant & striking color in the sea. It belongs to family of sea slugs, it is a snail-like creature without protection of shells and it feed mainly on sea anemones.
So beautiful and eye catching look just like diamonds in the rough.

Love to be served with colorful food on my plates, I thought it'd be awesome to put it on sushi and serve it to my friend when I first saw them during my dive!

Nembrota lineolata

There are up to thousands type of nudibranchs exist around the world, to each color, pattern, size and form.
While it requires professional camera, underwater housing and gears to capture these tiny loves (some as small as a grain of rice), I've gotten some photos from my personal bangla who carries a Hermes into the sea with him.

I still couldn't afford them pricey toys, but investing in a GoPro with its wide angle capability allowed me to show off  none others but the one and only limited edition underwater creature , mii awesome selfie.

Having said that, "You are what you eat.".
That doesn't mean you will turn into a potato or tomato if you're chewing one now.
But this cute little love under that almost every diver would love to see and capture, seem to have taken the statement very seriously.

Hypselodoris Tryoni

Nudibranchs are picky eater, they eat only one kind of prey or two. They spend approx 3-5 hours daily on munching inactively. Instead of getting sick or died from their food, they stores these poison in their body and absorb the color, making it look like a moving snacks for fishes. Yes they are tiny, but they are not defenseless, not at all!

While most of them are harmless to human, it's bright colors stands a beautiful defense shouting at its predator saying "Once bitten, considered sold!" Awesome shit.

Taringa Halgerda

Seeing a Whale Shark.

So, I ended my last dive for 2014 in Redang during it's closing season and coincidentally, I'm there again for it's opening season, just last weekend. Consider it a break from my work before GST's happening. 

The island was no doubt, packed like sardine on the first day of our arrival, due to school holidays. But it gets better on second day onward as people starts to leave the island and head back to the reality.

Arriving!

As a diver, I usually do not mind about the stay I'm getting as long as it's clean (not easy), and providing hot water and CLEAN, again. 

We stayed at Redang Bay, same resort as our last visit and surprisingly, they had the whole resort renovated! They now have more vendors surrounding the resort including a chill out bar, mini market, dessert shop and even a Taiwanese chicken chop stall, great stuff to kill time.

I personally think they provides kinda good packages including accommodation, food and dive packages (if you're a diver) at reasonable prices.

So, keep calm and gear up. Did I mention that I've got a beautiful birthday gift from T? A new BCD in my favorite red. Perfect timing for me to test it out before our Anilao trip in April.

My new set of gears. 

Anyway, I can mention many unforgettable and beautiful moments under water. But there's one dive that mark my most significant dive till date -- I saw a whale shark ! 

I was getting bored throughout the entire dive as there were nothing much to see, and my ass were freezing was all I can remember. While the few of us were doing safety stop at 5m before surface, i saw it swam gracefully passed us! I swear to god I thought I was dreaming for the first 2 sec before I alert the rest!

Not that hard to spot me under the water, really. 

In case you don't know,
The whale shark (Rhincodon typus) is a slow-moving filter feeding shark and the largest known extant fish species. - Wiki
It is NOT a whale.  They are harmless to people and usually indifferent to divers.

Image taken from Google. 

Well, it was a juvenile whale shark but it still counts! WHALE SHARK, geddit ?! 

Many were surprise that we saw it in Redang as it is definitely not a hot spot for it. We did not manage to capture any picture as it happened too random to our surprise. But boy, it definitely set a new milestone for my dive journey.


The sea, 
once it casts its spell, holds one in its net of wonder forever. 
- Jacques Cousteau



To summarize the trip, view video below:

 

Till my next dive in two weeks time,
L

Dream of Sinking Ship

It was me, you, friends and family.
I dream of a sinking ship. I was terrified and there's nothing that I can do about it.
I watch as the wave hits. We were going down.

There I was, million feet under the sea watching the ship....

It certainly feels strange and creepy.
Like many others, I immediately went to Google about it.

The water symbolizes both the mind and the soul and the culmination of those two things into what we call emotions. The water is basically a metaphor, in our dreams, for our own emotions, and a boat is our own ability to cross through those emotions and to navigate our own feelings. 

If you dream of your boat sinking this is a sign that you need to try harder in the future to control the way you feel. You have not been able to handle yourself the way that you should. Even though sometimes it can be a good thing to express your emotions, when you see a boat sinking in your dreams this is a sign that what you have been doing lately is not the good or constructive kind of emotional expression. You have gone beyond the realm of mere expression and these are now being translated into outbursts. You simply cannot keep control of yourself any longer.
More:http://www.gotohoroscope.com/txt/dream-dictionary-boat-sinking.html

More:http://www.gotohoroscope.com/txt/dream-dictionary-boat-sinking.html

Did I went outta control?

I don't know. The bad temper always hit. 

Toothache killing, 

grumpy xin.  

Promises.

Here I am, sitting in a cafe having some lone time on a peaceful Sunday.
Dad called yesterday saying that he felt as if he has one daughter lesser nowadays. As much as I wanted to go back but, to think of the mayhem might happened later just doze me off.

I usually handle all personal & work stuff using company's laptop and here I am,
typing from my own. Found some photos that's stored in desktop and flipping it through.
I thought of this day, last year.
No friends, no money, no home, no job, depression, lost.
It amazes me how did I walked through the days.
I don't remember how did it happened. From negative to zero to positive.

I don't deny things happened, they all happened for a reason.
It taught me well, to be strong, to be tough, good enough to be myself.
Well, people paid heavy price to get this far, the best option is to make it count by moving forward.

That was then, this is now.
Living in a society where promises are made like they're made to be broken.
I have promised myself a huge one since last year and it is due in approximately two months time.

Time is due soon and I can't wait to see it.

xx,
L.

Fifteen Hours.

Not sure whether it was because of the rising pressure from work, or any build up little issue back home is bothering me. I rant, I rage easily, I then start thinking too much - negatively.

I want to talk. I need to talk. The repeating dream every night, it is driving me nuts.
In a office that is full of products, in a bed that's filled with papers, and I was running in a jungle made from numbers. Eyes are everywhere, mostly staring with disagreement.
It must be the year end thingy.

Well, one more week.
Ending the year end sales meeting, just another week to go - for the very little details to be done for closing. I want this to be over quickly!


I think I should go for a real shopping spree to kick these nonsense off.

15 hours till year 2015, tic toc.
L.

Ending 2014, Making WithLouise Alive!

It has been a while since I last blogged.
Well, the last post was more than a year ago. I guess I forgot about it until Pagan asked me for it.
It's not that my life is dull or extremely eventful, it was ... normal. Twenty Fourteen has been a good year to me.
A roller coaster ride from life experience in work, friendship, family, finance and everything that gave me a shock but thank God, I survived it.

Imma gonna be random as I type.
Random events, random stories, random jokes, anything that run across my mind now.

I've learn that people come and go. I've learn that you are only strong because you've been weak; I even have the thoughts of putting a tattoo to it so that I do not fall again.
I've learn to start from zero, literally. Climbing up was tough but it was all worthy. I'm grateful that I met wonderful peoples and have amazing friends that never judge during my tough time, and the helps and encourages advises I get.

I've gained 10 kgs in a year and that puts a frown on my face! But now that I'm back to normal, I then come to realization that, isn't everything supposed to be this way? Things will be back to normal no matter how terrible, horrible it went.

Speaking of the weight gained, I discovered a way to lose weight that caters all you alcoholics out there. Good news? More beer!
I changed my diet a little by cutting carbs (once a day, usually breakfast), normal lunch (without carbs), and beer for dinner! In 3 months, I threw 7 kgs outta window! Now, do not tell me anything that says beer is fattening or highest calories among all alcohol. The fattening part comes from your supper, or any snacks that you're holding on your hand now I assume.

And that, puts me back to cooking. I love cooking. I love baking. I love the smells in the house whenever someone's cooking. For this I've started a small business, selling food in a jar. Mainly healthy bites or upon request for client's occasions. It feels great to look at the little jars of happiness.
On a side note, a couple of friends started their own business too! It certainly feel good to see friends around growing their hobby or interest steadily into business (I always agree to doing what you're liking is best thing to grow). The little effort that comes from everyone to help, the ups and downs.

I've quit the alcohol industry and got myself a job in a FMCG supplying company thanks to Christine. Instead of helping the lost souls now, I'm supplying happiness products! I love my job. I no longer need to stay up till late for work. I no longer need to drink for drinking. I'm enjoying my drinks just like how I used to be! I love the hangout sessions with friends instead of visiting different pubs and clubs days and nights. I'm spending more time at home with the love ones. I'm healthier, I guess.  >.<

I'm back to diving, the silent and beauty in the sea still fascinates me like mad! I still travels, but it is subjected to the availability from work. I shall post up some photos sometime soon.

Ok, that's too much typing. I think I should spend more time here, again.
Now, its about time for a beer.

Till then,
L.

Hennessy Artistry HALO 2013.

What's up party people? Anticipating one of the greatest party in town that's happening on 2nd of Nov much? Back in 2008, Hennessy Artistry forever changed the Kuala Lumpur clubbing scene with their Hennessy Artistry parties which featured great entertainment, great ambience and of course some awesome Hennessy long drinks!

After the last Hennessy Artistry party which was in Penang earlier this year, the wait for the finale of this year’s Hennessy Artistry – The Global Art of Mixing (or as we like to call it the Hennessy Artistry HALO) is finally over!

This year’s Hennessy Artistry HALO will undoubtedly feature a solid line up of artists from East and West and our very own Malaysia and is set to take place at the Malaysia International Exhibition and Convention Centre (MIECC) in Mines Resort City on 2 November 2013 from 7.00pm to 1.00am..

Party goers can expect to be entertained by an eclectic mix of Western and Eastern musical genres, styles and cultures. The performers for the night will be British song bird and vocal powerhouse Neon Hitch, famous for her Billboard chart topper “Love U Betta”, and her collaboration with Gym Class Heroes on “A** Back Home”; Korea’s rising star NS Yoon-G, who has performed with the likes of Jay Park; progressive house guru Dmitry KO, famous for his collaboration with Starkillers on “Odessa”; world-renowned trance hard-hitter Jochen Miller, who was featured in Armin’s “State of Trance” mix album; and Malaysia’s very own electro and techno DJ heroes Lapsap.

.Neon Hitch

The latest female firecracker from Britain, Neon Hitch has established herself as a Billboard chart topper with her single “Love U Betta”. She has also performed and collaborated with A-list artists such as Gym Class Heroes on their hit song “Ass Back Home”, Ke$ha on “Bla Bla Bla”, as well as Bruno Mars and Imogen Heap. Join us and experience this vocal powerhouse as she takes the party to the next level at H-Artistry KL 2013.

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LapSap

LapSap is Malaysia’s duo house music heroes which consist of DJ Xu and DJ Blink, who have banded together for the sole purpose of bringing the electro and house scene in Malaysia to the next level. With countless sold-out gigs both local and around the world, this dynamite-duo is set to give party revelers a taste of Asian inspired electro and house tunes at H-Artistry 2013!

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Jochen MIller

Injecting his signature crossbreed of progressive, electro and trance beats to his music, Holland’s Jochen Miller embodies the new decade’s freeform, Big Room soundscape. Featured in Armin’s “State of Trance” album, Jochen will be treating party revelers to fast and explosive trance hits at this year’s H-Artistrty KL!

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.Dmitry KO

Progressive house guru Dmitry KO has been setting fire to the dance floor since emerging on the stage in 2009 with this individualized style of traditional house music. Famous for this collaboration with Starkillers on “Odessa”, see him live at H-Artistry 2013 as he brings the house down!.

NS Yoon-G

Regarded as a one of Korea’s most sought after solo female acts, NS Yoon-G has worked with top acts like Jay Park on her hit single “If You Love Me”. Having rocked H-Artistry Hong Kong with her explosive energy earlier this year, K-Pop fans in Malaysia will be treated to an unforgettable night of vocal belting and hip-swaying when Yoon-G takes stage at H-Artistry KL 2013!

Now as smartphones basically rule our lives, you can download the MY Hennessy Mobile App from the App Store or Google Play which will enable you to enjoy a new party experience.

Now just how do you get passes to this awesome super club event?

Simply purchase Hennessy V.S.O.P at participating outlets!

Every purchase of ONE Hennessy V.S.O.P 70cl comes with TWO exclusive invites the purchase of TWO Hennessy V.S.O.P 70cl bottles comes with FIVE exclusive invites.

In addition to that, My Hennessy members can also earn the H-Artistry invites using the MY Hennessy app through collection of points by using the app’s feature and redeem the invites using Hennessy Exchange.

If you are a social media addict, feel free to share your memorable Hennessy Artistry moments on social media using #HARTISTRYKL

As always, do not over drink and make sure you pace yourself in order to fully enjoy the party. Hennessy is a responsibly brand and thus complimentary mineral water will be provided throughout the night, while food stalls will also be available outside the venue for everyone to recharge during and after the event.

Hennessy Artistry – The Global Art of Mixing strongly advocates responsible drinking and works towards ensuring the safety of each and every guest at the event. Among the safety and security measures that will be implemented at the upcoming party are:

- The organizers of H-Artistry strongly encourage party-goers to take a taxi to the event, as parking spaces at MIECC will not be available. Taxis will also be available at the event for party-goers to return home. Or you could always book at room at the Mines Wellness Hotel which is right next door!

- A chill-out zone within the venue will be set up for party goers to relax after the party has ended. A free-flow of mineral water will be provided for everyone.

- Food and drink vendors will be made available outside the event venue for guests to relax and recharge after the party.

- Medical personnel will be on standby throughout the night in case of any emergencies.

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SEE YOU AT THE PARTY!

Malaysia International Exhibition and Convention Centre (MIECC)

Jalan Dulang, MINES Resort City, Seri Kembangan,

43300 Seri Kembangan, Selangor, Malaysia

Google Map Link: http://goo.gl/maps/K8JtJ

H-Artistry is open to non-Muslims above the age of 18 only.

For more information, head over to http://www.hartistry.com.my or https://www.facebook.com/HennessyMalaysia

Weekend at TDH Cider Saturday Massacre!

I know I'm a little too late as it's touching mid of the month already but #niggasaywhuuuut? Better late than never. Out of many drunken days in the past few months, I find this particularly amusing and yea, counted as one of the best day ever!

I woke up hungover of one beautiful Saturday and decided to go for brunch with the #barefootchics group. Just when I thought I could get another 20 mins of sleep, Caryn said "No, get ready and I'm on my way to pick you up, let's go somewhere."
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For us being us. Coffee sounds strange, pretty sure our body's autopilot system would direct us to our right place. So yea, started with my favorite booze/boost of the day - Bloody Mary w lotsa lotsa lotsa tobasco at Circus KL. -_-

If you have to ask if it's too early to drink...You're an amateur & we can't be friends. 

Nowadays taking car seems to be too mainstream. Our friends are busy flying all over the world than being in town. Hours of catching up with the #barefootchics with drinks and taaadaaaa, off we go to TDH madness Cider Saturday! (Ten bucks/each for any cider in the house!)



As we all agreed to go slow with the silent killer, it went perfectly well for the.... first 90 minutes I would say.
Photos were great, peoples talking, everything's normal.

#barefootchics (short of one) w the manager? 

Then sh*t happened. Sorry, I mean #HAVOC happened!
What do you expect? The booze was cheaper than petrol!



To the partner in crime that started the whole ''judgement'' treat.



#Victim 1: Don.



#Victim 2: Sam.





#Victim 3,4,5,6,7,.....lost count. Do your math. :P





Holding a bottle of killer in my hand, that's where my memory went lost.




Nothing could  beat a whole day of cider tossing, surrounded by cherish people on my favorite day.


Cheers,
LouiseXin

Being me.

Sometimes, I like to hide and chill.
A bottle of red, a few close friends, staring at sky, silly moments, comedy, movie night, or topics that will never run out would make my day.







I lose sleep.



I'm just another girl, just another one.




Free fall,
LouiseXin

Living Young.

So what we get drunk
So what we don't sleep
We're just having fun
We don't care who sees
So what we go out
That's how its supposed to be
Living young. and wild. and free!





xx loves,
louisexin

Restaurant Yu Ai, Chow Yang

Our weekly SOP after every massive night out.

It's not about the price at RM 20 for a bowl of curry/Tom Yam noodles that matters, it's about the thick slurpeee broth that bring us back to the real world after the bang from last night!



Yes this place is a little overrated, the MSG used in the soup might be slightly too much but what the heck, the seafood galore within the bowl of goodness wins it all. After all, we just wanna chillllll!

Gosh, I'm hungry by just looking at the photo!

Restaurant Yu Ai
No. 58, Jalan SS2/10,
47300, PJ, Selangor



xx loves,
LouiseXin

WithLouise's Weekly Routine.

Morning Monday!

I randomly feel like posting some photos of my awesome weekly routine.

#1 The recent trend - Mexican Wave.



#2 Virgin Maker - Get your virginity back after three shots of these, nuff said.





#3 DuckFace after downing the shots



#4 Girly Friday night out



#5 Caffeine to cure the post-party bitchy mode



#6 Do nothing, think nothing and keep ourselves in P.E.A.C.E.



#7 Sunday brunch with some bubbly



#8 End the week with a bang with the ultimate wake up call to welcome the blue-ish Monday!





Now, back to work.



xx,
LouiseXin