31 岁

 31 岁啦！

老了。

感觉什么都容易失去。

什么都不容易得来。

那天的我很幸福。

生日许的愿望是每年都可以获得同等的关爱。

得到了从未有过的关爱，更害怕失去那一刻的感觉。

跌跌撞撞太多反而让自己害怕。

得到越多是不是等待跌倒更深的那一刻？

期望的越高，是不是失落的更多?

30岁的我

30岁的我： 

27岁不顾一切生下了女儿， 今年女儿三岁。

曾经自己想过自己怎么去闯，怎么去恍的人生，发生了重大的改变。

想要跳bungee jumping 不需回头考虑，一直是人生目标。

却因为思虑中的她，不敢妄想。

想要继续挑战没去过的地方，现在更想带你一起去体验。

想要没有停歇与朋友一起畅谈，却因为不想错过与你的每分每秒而回家。

想要不停旅行，却放不下带你的心。

曾经想过如果当初没有那份坚持，就没有今天的我。

谢谢你，成就了今天的我。

因为你，

有家真好。

时间和环境。

叠高枕头想了很久，一个永远解不开论不停的话题，钱能改变一个人吗？
念书时的恋爱，仿佛没有一方曾经告诉过我它的重要性。凡事只要开心就好，哪怕只是一些微小的体贴行为或是久久一次的约会已经感到非常满足。
进入社会工作时，开始考虑到大家能相处的时间都有限，顾虑多了，负担高了，少了份自在；决定也会因为需要顾虑及不同的因素而更变。

人为什么会改变？
其中最奇妙的因素应该是时间和环境吧！
两者都是一件很独特却息息相关的因素。人生，不就是分分秒秒都围绕在它俩旁吗？
它不仅能够改变一个人的思想与态度，还可以影响这一个人的本质以及行为。

这让我想起了姐姐的故事。
当时她男朋友每个星期天带着她也带上我去捉蝴蝶 - 那，是一种简单的快乐。
我姐在她22岁时嫁给了她男友，我的姐夫. 婚姻，是成家立士的象征.
从一无所有，陪着他总算挨过来了。
至今已经20年了，详情我也就不提了，总之两人还是那么的相亲相爱。
这份幸福来的不易。那是经过努力后得来的快乐。

时间和环境，再次成为了主角。

我发现周遭的人，会沾花惹草的人，都是经济稳固的人。
哪怕在不稳定时，都不怎么会想到离开守在身边的那一位（不是在说我姐）。
换个角度想想，一开始就过的非常舒服的一群利用自己拥有的来容易的事物去找到伴侣。
跟随你的，是否能在你跌倒的那一天，还牵着你的手呢？

朋友告诉我：对，金钱就是魔鬼。
即便每个人多么的想否认这一点，可是它真的能够有令使你迷失了方向，迷失了原始的纯真，甚至迷失了自我的能力。

如果你反对，请你老实回答我，
你现在什么都有了，这样比较快乐，
还是小时候什么都没有时候比较快了呢？

我想，每个人的答案会随着不同的时间与环境下而变异。


不说了，
也许，最简单的快乐，就隐藏在最单纯的时光里。




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心情篇 - 壹

自己不知道怎么一回事。只有在伤心或疑惑的时候才会想起自己的部落格。
说是想把自己的情绪发泄发泄吧？

人脑是相当环保的工具。当我们进入一个新环境的时候，感官会特别灵敏，注意到的特别多，不过一旦我们熟悉了那个环境，大脑就会自动切换「省电模式」，过滤掉所有自认为不重要的细节。- 刘轩

有慎重的想过这一句话，人在进入一个 ‘省电模式’后，会不会渐渐的失去不知不觉中忽略掉的事情而越来越没有了自我？

累了。
已经第26天了， 心与脑还是不是很搭得上。

想逃跑的感觉又忽然冒了出来。。。。。


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Live To Dive Chapter - Nudibranch

Sakuraeolis Nungunoides

To divers, apart from the excitement of sighting whale shark, manta rays or other big fishes, we are often attracted to nudibranch, for their vibrant & striking color in the sea. It belongs to family of sea slugs, it is a snail-like creature without protection of shells and it feed mainly on sea anemones.
So beautiful and eye catching look just like diamonds in the rough.

Love to be served with colorful food on my plates, I thought it'd be awesome to put it on sushi and serve it to my friend when I first saw them during my dive!

Nembrota lineolata

There are up to thousands type of nudibranchs exist around the world, to each color, pattern, size and form.
While it requires professional camera, underwater housing and gears to capture these tiny loves (some as small as a grain of rice), I've gotten some photos from my personal bangla who carries a Hermes into the sea with him.

I still couldn't afford them pricey toys, but investing in a GoPro with its wide angle capability allowed me to show off  none others but the one and only limited edition underwater creature , mii awesome selfie.

Having said that, "You are what you eat.".
That doesn't mean you will turn into a potato or tomato if you're chewing one now.
But this cute little love under that almost every diver would love to see and capture, seem to have taken the statement very seriously.

Hypselodoris Tryoni

Nudibranchs are picky eater, they eat only one kind of prey or two. They spend approx 3-5 hours daily on munching inactively. Instead of getting sick or died from their food, they stores these poison in their body and absorb the color, making it look like a moving snacks for fishes. Yes they are tiny, but they are not defenseless, not at all!

While most of them are harmless to human, it's bright colors stands a beautiful defense shouting at its predator saying "Once bitten, considered sold!" Awesome shit.

Taringa Halgerda

Seeing a Whale Shark.

So, I ended my last dive for 2014 in Redang during it's closing season and coincidentally, I'm there again for it's opening season, just last weekend. Consider it a break from my work before GST's happening. 

The island was no doubt, packed like sardine on the first day of our arrival, due to school holidays. But it gets better on second day onward as people starts to leave the island and head back to the reality.

Arriving!

As a diver, I usually do not mind about the stay I'm getting as long as it's clean (not easy), and providing hot water and CLEAN, again. 

We stayed at Redang Bay, same resort as our last visit and surprisingly, they had the whole resort renovated! They now have more vendors surrounding the resort including a chill out bar, mini market, dessert shop and even a Taiwanese chicken chop stall, great stuff to kill time.

I personally think they provides kinda good packages including accommodation, food and dive packages (if you're a diver) at reasonable prices.

So, keep calm and gear up. Did I mention that I've got a beautiful birthday gift from T? A new BCD in my favorite red. Perfect timing for me to test it out before our Anilao trip in April.

My new set of gears. 

Anyway, I can mention many unforgettable and beautiful moments under water. But there's one dive that mark my most significant dive till date -- I saw a whale shark ! 

I was getting bored throughout the entire dive as there were nothing much to see, and my ass were freezing was all I can remember. While the few of us were doing safety stop at 5m before surface, i saw it swam gracefully passed us! I swear to god I thought I was dreaming for the first 2 sec before I alert the rest!

Not that hard to spot me under the water, really. 

In case you don't know,
The whale shark (Rhincodon typus) is a slow-moving filter feeding shark and the largest known extant fish species. - Wiki
It is NOT a whale.  They are harmless to people and usually indifferent to divers.

Image taken from Google. 

Well, it was a juvenile whale shark but it still counts! WHALE SHARK, geddit ?! 

Many were surprise that we saw it in Redang as it is definitely not a hot spot for it. We did not manage to capture any picture as it happened too random to our surprise. But boy, it definitely set a new milestone for my dive journey.


The sea, 
once it casts its spell, holds one in its net of wonder forever. 
- Jacques Cousteau



To summarize the trip, view video below:

 

Till my next dive in two weeks time,
L